100th Blog Post
I can’t even believe that I am writing and posting my 100th blog post! I have never been more proud of myself. I absolutely love and cherish celebrating my blog milestones. For all of my subscribers and readers I really appreciate your support.
To be honest, it took me awhile to figure out what I wanted to write about for my 100th post.
“It seemed like such a big deal that it really got into my head that this had to be one of my best posts”
And then I started to get stressed out because I had no idea what to write about. It went downhill from there…I started jotting down ideas and couldn’t put thoughts into words. For a blogger and a journalism graduate I never felt so gloomy that I couldn’t do what I loved to do. Blog. There were so many other things contributing to my stress but it all amounted to the same scenario, I couldn’t write.
It sounds so silly but I feel like I went through a minor depression. From the minute I wake up until the minute I go to sleep I am working on my blog. For hours a day I would stare at a computer screen and nothing would come out. I was getting so frustrated I would sit in my bed and just cry. It sounds dramatic but its true.
Now I know that I sound crazy from stress brought on by bloggers block but that wasn’t the only thing contributing to my stress.
One of the biggest contributions to my stress has been not working in public relations. I absolutely love the public relations field. Everything about it excites me and it challenges me to learn everything I can in the field. It has been so hard to walk away from and I look almost everyday for my breakout opportunity into the PR world.
Which leads to yet another reason I have been so stressed. My little gymnasts. Finding a job in PR means moving and walking away from some of the most amazing gymnasts and kids I have ever coached. I love each and every one of them that it breaks my heart to even think about leaving them. We just finished our competition season and the growth I have seen in my kids in such a short year is incredible.
When I graduated, I fully accepted that gymnastics wouldn’t be a part of my life again. I moved back home and my PR opportunities were further out of reach than ever. Then I took a coaching job and it was such a different experience, but one where I could still be a part of the sport that I had devoted so much of my life too. I love the spark in my girls eye’s when they finally nail a trick or when they learn something new. There is nothing better than their smiles and the laughter they bring me on a daily basis.
So you can imagine the guilt I feel every time I think about when I can finally live with my best friend and start the next chapter of our life together.
“Ugh…It should be such a wonderful time but I can’t help but think about it as a ticking time bomb and crushing every single one of my kids hearts.”
As you can probably guess, another one of my stressors. Too bad I can’t be one of those people who loses weight off stress. At least then something good would be coming out of this… 🙁
It’s probably no surprise that I miss Kaalen. I mean he’s the love of my life and my best friend so of course I miss spending every minute with him. We don’t get to see each other as often as either of us would like, but we have work commitments that can be hard to get away from. Nevertheless, to say I am anxious for the day we get to move in together is an understatement.
Are you stressed yet?!
OMG could this 100th celebration post get any more depressing!! I sincerely apologize. LOL
On the bright side I have finally started to let the stress fade and have even found some new inspiration to get my creative juices flowing again! YAY for blogging again. I am really trying to commit to blogging full-time and step up my game. I have almost been blogging about a year now and it has really just been a hobby. Well now I want to make it a full-time thing and that takes some serious work on my part. I have so many new things coming and I can’t wait to share them with you all. So hopefully you have stuck around to the very end of this post and alongside me through my bloggers block.